its hard to change urself, ur attitude, ur feelings and whatever. everything seems difficult when it comes to something new. its kinda hard for u to do something that you never did before. but in life, u have to face the changes of life. it happens everyday, every minute, every second. thats something that u need to accept. thats why people say life is getting tougher day by day. u have to recharge your imaan so u can through it. have faith in everything. think positive and do good deeds. hmm, i recommend you to read Hlovate {versus}.
