Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
many of us prefer to accept the lies rather than the truth because mostly the truth always make us hurt. but we actually wanna know the truth but we can't bear the pain of having the truth info. yes. can't deny this one. i'm not the exceptional here. because i'd prefer lies rather than the truth but for how long i have to live my life full of lies?
if you'd be given a chance, to accept the truth which is full of pain or the lies which is full of happiness. what would be your option?
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there was one day, when my friends and I were talking and talking and talking or should we called it gossips?
yes, it is. gossips.
and beside us, was our senior. she didn't do anything but hear all of our stories. we talked about someone's behavior, we talked nonsense and laughed stupidly at our silly jokes. you know. girls always be like that. like they don't have a perfect life.
then, my senior asked,
"why are you backbiting your own friends?"
we were surprised, and of course i wanted to make her clear, and i replied
"no. we just talking the truth about that person"
with a silly smile i showed to her.
my senior replied.
"of coure you're talking the truth, yet it still called backbiting. if you talk the not true about that person it means you're making a fitnah to somebody"
we were stunned, her words. really inspiring.
yes, i have to accept that we were backbiting our own friends, our own sisters in Islam. we backbite them as if we eat their meats. Nauzubilah.
yes, her words are all true yet it hurts my pride, hurts my feelings but all in all it makes me realize that was a mistake of mine that i shouldn't do it again. i have many things to do instead of backbiting people.
you know, when you make mistakes to someone, you have to ask their apologize?
yes, of course you know about it.
and what if your "victims" are already not here in duniya (died), don't you feel guilty at all?
i feel terribly guilty. no, my "victims" are still here. alhamdulillah. and i'd ask their forgiveness. Alhamdulillah.
when you don't have a chance to apologize to your "victims" in duniya, you have to find them and ask them to forgive you in Hereafter. in Mahsyar. MasyaAllah.
can you imagine how many people will be in Mahsyar and how hot Mahsyar will be? the Mahsyar temperature as if the Sun is on your head. really close to your head. it may be millions degrees celcius or more. MasyaAllah. and are you willing to find people that you've been oppressed when you were in duniya. are you reallly recognize the faces you have been oppressed in Mahsyar? Nauzubillah.
or they may wanted Allah takes all your pahala and give it to them. Nauzubillah.
there was an arabic proverb,
"berkatalah benar walaupun ianya pahit"
we have to train ourselves to accept the truth. yes, people said this world is cruel. full of lies. accept the truth eventho it hurts us a lot. bear it a little and learn from it. we may be a better person someday. accept all the flaws that we have and try to fix it. we can't be perfect as if we try so hard to be perfect, we still can't.
accept that we are Allah's servant. we are human. we have lots of flaws. never easily get jealous of someone if they have good looks while you're not. they may have a good look but you may have a really beautiful heart and mind. Allah Al-Adlu. He knows what is best for His servants.
if you think you're not a good person, never giving up to be someone who is much better in your future. learn from yesterday to a better tomorrow. if you're planning to always do solat sunat(s) start it from now. it never too late. say Alhamdulillah, Allah had given you a hidayah to move much closer to Him.
you will be loved by Allah and the angels of Him if you always make an effort to be much closer to Him.
my friend gave me this ayah;
"Allah tengok usaha, bukannya hasil"
"Allah looks for the efforts not the results"
How beautiful Allah is. He is such that indescribable beautiful. He is and forever will be.He loves us more than anyone loves us.
if you'd be given a chance either to love your beloved boyfriend or Allah,
please please and please, choose Allah. Allah is the best for you, me and us all.
this is the truth. i don't make a story. truth sometimes can be nice.
do everything and start niah only for Allah. Allah will help us through everything. every little things.
