Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi wabarakatuh,
i really blessed to have experienced doing umra at the young age, alhamdulillah. all praises to The Almighty, Allah swt. no words can describe how blessful i am to be given that chance. i still can recall my memories back then in holy land. i can remember the very first time i saw masjidil haram, i cried. the tears just shed from my eyes. the feeling that i can never describe. the first time, i stepped in to masjidil haram. masyaAllah. everything is just nice. the very first time, i saw the holy kaaba with my two naked eyes. i cried. i never thought of going mecca and had a chance to touch hijir ismail. yes, i don't get a chance to kiss hajarul aswad even the hajarul aswad is right in front of me yet i still grateful, alhamdulillah.
i still remember, i don't want to go back to hotel and insisted to stay in masjidil haram because i just love masjidil haram and for me, being in the masjidil haram is one of the wonderful feelings ever. i still remember, i did tawaf 7 times and got being pushed by turkians. i remember, when the guard asked me if i'm from Malaysia or not. i still remember, the first time in my life, seeing so many quran in masjid. i still remember, i saw this one cute baby masyaAllah and i did pray to have that kind of baby in the future. i still remember the tiredness of doing saei in between safa and marwa yet everything is just blissful. i still remember i was mesmerized on how the workers of masjidil haram did their job efficiently and didn't care of how many people are passing by them and they just wanna make sure, the masjidil haram is on clean and i hope their deeds will be accepted by Allah azzawajalla.
i still remember on how beautiful masjid al-nabawi looks like. and i still remember on how coldness the temperature of medina al munawarrah feels like. i still remember, i insisted to just stay in the hotel instead of go shopping. i'd rather sleep than join my mom and all the aunties going shopping. i just actually had a lot of fun there eventhough i sometimes miss Malaysia like a lot. like how my friends doing in Malaysia? what's time of Malaysia is right now? i miss masakan melayu a lot. well i used to get homesick a lot but when it's near for us to going back to Malaysia, i feel like i don't want to go anywhere but to just stay in holy land. i want to go back to masjidil haram. i want to go back to the holy kaaba and do again and again tawaf.
when i was on my flight, i just wishing that i could see the masjidil haram from the view of my seat for the last time before i going back to malaysia and i kept searching for masjidil haram yet i failed. i didn't see any signs of mecca from up there.yes, a little bit dissappointed but i'm grateful enough somehow.
i just keep praying to just be given other chance by Allah to go to mecca and medina in the future and hoping this is not my last umra. ya Allah, give me more chances to go to mecca and medina again ya Allah. i really wanna go there again. i miss everything. lucky to those who lived in mecca. so lucky of you to be given a chance to live near the holy mosque and always get to hear the adhaan live from the masjidil haram. masyaAllah. how lucky you. how lucky. you don't need any visas nor passports to go there. how lucky are you to be given such that glorious oppurtunity by Allah yet so many people are hoping and praying to walk in your shoes. masyaAllah. be grateful dear sisters and brothers who live near the masjidil haram and masjid al nabawi and have chances to go these two mosques at any time. masyaAllah.
